Monday (the) Morning (after).

Nothing gives a girl a fresh surge of energy than a hot cup of cappuccino on a monday morning...mmmm...I need to get a nice dose of it before I kick off. Yep! I'm gonna be productive today.=)

Anyway, the weekend that passed was very pleasant. Although I had a hangover yesterday (whoa never had an HO for the longest time), it was nonetheless very nice, and as I quote my friend "it was one for the books."

I had an epiphany. I just mistook everything. Remember my last post about being ALL IN? Apparrently, I realized that I'm not into him. I prayed about it, and for some magical reason He let things unfold in front of me. God is really good. I have no regrets. I'm really grateful because I let Him do His work, and I observed myself, my reactions, my feelings, what I think, etc. while giving it a chance.

I may not be making sense in articulating how I feel in this journal, but I really feel that it is all making sense to me now.

Nothing can make me kick my shoes off, start anything that I am supposed to be doing but left unattended coz of my confusion, but a nice dose of Clarity.=)

As for me, after 4 years and counting, I'm still going to wait for the fireworks and lightning...while seeing the person clearly, not just superficially. I'd be a little careful though with living prophylactically and doing fire prevention coz I might miss my OTL.=)

Great Monday to everyone! God Bless.

You earn your living by working, you earn your life by giving. - George L. Graziadio

Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different. - Oprah

Disturb me, Lord, when my dreams come true, only because I dreamed too small. Disturb me when I arrive safely, only because I sailed too close to the shore. Disturb me when the things I have gained cause me to lose my thirst for more of You. Disturb me when I have acquired success, only to lose my desire for excellence. Disturb me when I give up too soon and settle too far short of the goals You have set for my life. Amen. -Author Unknown

I need to be reminded...

"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in ALL CIRCUMSTANCES, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for You." 1Thess 5:16-18

I am on the verge of dousing the fire. But I have to get myself together. Everytime I sense the over-analyzing reflex starting again, I pray. And I guess I was reminded. I really want to see what's going to happen in the future. So each day my mindset is going to be: Let's see what will happen tomorrow, for sure it's gonna be better. Whatever happens, I believe that this is His Will for me. So I am giving it a shot. I am letting go, I am letting God.=)

Yup, one day at a time.

Theo 131: Love involves the Will. Love is a desire of sufficient intensity that is translated into action; it is both an intention and an action. It implies CHOICE - we choose to love.

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Haay...saw Greenbelt this morning, the boys were putting Christmas lights already. I'm so excited for Christmas, such a happy season, my favorite part of the year. Now I wonder what's going to happen to me this Christmas.

2 am

For the past couple of months, I’ve been eating in CYMA twice a week on average. But for some reason I was there for FOUR times this week. The waiters probably figured that I really love their food, despite the lousy reservation service and the long line of waiting whenever I go there. So tonight is a special night, CYMA asked for my name FOR THE FIRST TIME and then surprised me and my friend Rica by giving us a free desert. It’s this really warm chocolate cake, molten on the inside and served with ice cream (ala mode), caramel syrup, and a hefty sprinkle of confectioner’s sugar for that final touch. I tell you it’s divine. The infusion of flavors inside my mouth when I first had a taste of it…hmmm….heaven…

Wish I had a cam with me so I could’ve shared a photo. But my dad lost our trusty Sony 5.1 megapixel black digicam last Sunday in Universal Studios. Heck.

So here I am on my bed, connected in the cyberspace and writing my thoughts at 2 am. Sigh. If anyone can have an opportunity to open my mind and take a good look inside, you’d probably notice that the wheels of this well-oiled machine are working overtime. Yes…I think I’m becoming an expert in this Fire Prevention Program that I’ve employed since 2004. The skills are enhanced in every experience, but I know, deep down, that in every disappointment is the HOPE that it’s going to be BETTER the next time around.

I wonder how many ‘next times’ there will be, and how many fires will I have to contend with.

What I really want to do, if you may ask, is to park all these rules and SEE WHAT HAPPENS.

You think I should go for it? Who says YES?

So this is officially a spontaneous sober declaration of my semi exhausted mind (and probably heart…)

ALL IN.

PS: I wonder if I should believe in it whenever I do this. I might change my mind in the morning, when the wheels are revved up and in tip top condition again.
We’ll see.

On blind spots

Probably I knew all these things all along but I refuse to face it. I feel comfortable with what my beliefs are at the moment. I feel that if this thing that I have created will be somewhat shaken, I know for sure that I’d be able to handle it. However, I don’t know if I’d be ready, or if I want to.

I know I can, but I think I refuse to at the moment.

I need a paradigm shift.

My life is really, really good. Yet I must admit that I need to do some tweaking of my own. I love the fact that I live a happy disposition. I’m pretty content with what I have right now, my family, career, friends, they’re all great.

The wind on my face, the adrenalin rush, that feeling of ‘pagkahulog at pagtataya’ according to Azada. I think that’s what I need.

I need an adventure. Maybe I’d go somewhere soon.=)

Things I wanna do with my life.

1. Learn a new language. Particularly FRENCH. Je Suis un etudiant de langue Francaise.
2. Go to Paris and live there for a year.
3. Travel hop! See all 7 wonders of the world.
4. Learn to cook. Je Suis Gourmand.
5. Continue this healthy lifestyle advocacy...why not? It's the wellness era darling.=)
6. Learn to dive and try that Tubataha place.
7. Create a foundation for little kids.
8. Teach a management elective in Ateneo JGSOM.
9. Ride a helicopter, the new jumbo airbus and boeing 787.
10. Study Interior Design in Europe.
11. Get a Master's Degree.
12. Try something nouveau in Hong Kong, like going to Fong.
13. Eat in Serendipity Tree.
14. Visit the Pope.
15. Attend the World Youth Day.
16. Do a Marian Pilgrimage.
17. Smell the flowers in Central Park.
18. Swim in some beach in Australia and Brazil.
19. Watch The Phantom of the Opera.
20. Go to Alay ng Puso and spend time with the kids there every December.

to be continued...

I CANNOT get enough of CYMA. Delicieux!

I know I need to get my act together, I shouldn't be distracted. But c'est vendredi and I just can't help it! Great Lunch. Kudos to CYMA and it's friendly staff for giving the much needed endorphins a girl could ever ask for.=)

By the way, have you ever tried "cruising" along skyway or SLEX on a Friday night? It's nightmareISH I wanted to cry. Quoting Anne: "Ang pula pula ng daan."
Hillsongs saved me from my anguish though. That's always a good thing, being patient while driving.

My friend inquired earlier why I changed my blog from stealmysunshyn to this. I was thinking of a deep philo answer but I can't make the wheels in my head turn so I opted for the truth, I forgot my password.=p & another thing, it felt like it wasn't me talking anymore (while I was reading the old posts the author seemed like ...well... not me) so I decided to create something that is more close to who I am now, like a (close) snapshot of a particular moment in my life. Hence the birth of Et C'est Ma Vie (and this is my life).=)

Well there, c'est tout!

Great day so far. I wonder what's in store for moi tonight.

Ciao for now!